Back to square one

It has been a long time since I got to write.
I am going to make up for it today. Basically I am going to vent.

I don't recall if I had written about my achievement. I got a job, I got one by clearing my very first interview. It's not that I didn't try for any more, but this was the only one interview I could attend.
I am really thankful to my parents and my little child for being with me and seeing me through the whole journey.

I had always thought that I would be able to move back to my home town and nurture my growing child and my career. It looks like I have to shelve the dream for some time. I got a reply from one of the senior person from 'the targeted company' - there are no positions to suite my experience. 'Seriously!' that was the first thought that crossed my mind. I had always considered myself very dynamic and smart, and achieving and passionate and what else. But it looks like I am not really needed in the place I want to be.

I felt bad, I really felt horrible. I cried on the way back home from office. It hurt. Everything I passionately reach for has managed to slipped out through my fingers. This one too keeps eluding me. But I am not going to give up on this so easily.

With a heavy heart, I sat down trying to book a train ticket back home, and the site just didn't give in. I feasted on a heavy dark chocolate pastry and ordered a ticket by bus.